Monday, April 21, 2008

trying at life.


sometimes we play dress up at work...

why is it that im invisible to most people?
im pretty loud, im outgoing, im silly and quirky and yet
i am constantly being overlooked, mainly by the male population.
i have now come to the conclusion that i am the girl you ask to dance
after everyone has already been partnered up , i am continuously second choice..
which is fucking lame...

how does one go about being first choice?
this is really mind boggling for me actually i just want someone to help me through the steps on how to be a well adjusted likeable human being that doesn't repell all males.

Sunday, April 20, 2008

walking

..is making my feet ugly.
Not that they were pretty to begin with , but definitely with the amount of walking I've been doing they are getting considerably worse. This morning i couldn't even get up , my knees were squeaking like a rusty bike which now brings me to the point that I must be a grandma. Lexy and I decided to walk over the williamsburg bridge from her apartment to st. marks and even though that is a daily thing with her i am was suprisingly (sarcasm) not used to it. With all that walking and all the walking I do at work i think my feet need a rest.

I'm up and it's 4am here.. I'm never up this late but tomorrow i close and my roommate is not here tonight and when that happens i normally try to stay up till the sun comes up. I get really scared when im alone and i realize that im alone. I know it sounds stupid but it's almost like when you get your hand smashed by a door and you don't realize the pain till you look at it. Ok it's nothing like that but you get the gist. This way if I'm up i could just pretend that it's 4pm and I'm just going about my business, and not caught off guard incase something happens. I spend a good portion of the night watching almost famous on jeans computer. It was the extended version which is amazing because it ties in all the loose ends and i mean i ADORE this movie it reminds me a lot of When i was younger , eager and hopeful and just in love with music.I wanted to travel the country listening to my favorite band and experiencing the music i love with my friends .. and i guess i got to live that out in way. And no i was never a groupie (thank god) i always felt so connected to Penny Lane i don't know why maybe i wanted to be a groupie? hahaha NOOO but there is something about that character that just made me feel like i either wanted to be here or i was her. Damn you Cameron Crowe with Almost Famous and Elizabethtown you have my heart.

now unto pictures...




Friday, April 18, 2008

sunny days are here again

It's been good lately, I don't know what it is but my attitude has made a 360. I went to being depressed and stressed all the time to being happy and more care-free. Maybe it is because when your down there is nowhere to go but up? I hope so because i am really starting to enjoy the weather and just the city vibe right now. It might have something to do with the sunny skies or it might have something to do with the fact that i just bought a nikon d40!!! I've wanted one for soo many years and now i finally own one, and im playing with it like crazy.

A camera is almost like a friend in a way that you really have to get yourself adjusted to it, this could take forever sometimes, my first digital camera i knew like the back of my hand. Depending on the picture i was taking and such i knew without thinking what were the right settings,and lighting, etc... which is amazing because i am not a good technical photographer so those things are kind of eh to me and don't come to me as fast..so now with this new camera ..it's all about exploring ! giving me more control over my picture (which could be a bad thing) but still having the luxury of digital.

Lex, Rusha, and I  went to central park today since it was 74 degrees in new york city. It was such an nice trip walking through central park and just enjoying each others company. We walked all the way to the Met and just people watched for awhile while sharing the most expensive meal off a cart ever!!! 14 dollars for two hot dogs and two sodas...wtf??? I didn't even care though because i was finally having a really good day...I took some pictures of my excursion and please pardon the rookie-ness. I'm just getting to know my camera and this might be a long relationship ...










Tuesday, April 1, 2008

i was in pennsylvania this weekend...

...and it was pretty awesome..first off it was just nice to be back in car after so long. I love long car rides..which is ironic because i don't drive but still any time i can classify anything as a road trip I'm in. It didn't take that long to get there and as soon as we arrived at Dickinson College..i really started to regret not going to college. The buildings on the campus were so adorable, i just wanted to live in them. There was even a bonfire going on, that i was sad i couldn't attend. The library was pretty sweet also, it even had a card catalog..i haven't seen one of those in forever!! I sound like im from outerspace right now getting excited about a card catalog but really it seems with technology today these kind of things are becoming non existent so it is just sort of a nostalgia thing....

anyways here are some pictures enjoy...






more at my flickr.....http://www.flickr.com/photos/melephant/show/

Monday, March 31, 2008

GEEK



no makeup..out of shower hair..glasses..and a mac..not a good combination..

jean just made me realize how much i love the postal service..for some reason they always remind me of driving down streets in the middle of nowhere in Arizona ....
I miss Arizona , i never thought i would say that ..hahaha but i do. It always seemed to be the place we would run to but never really wanted to go . Now i miss "my bridge" and my friends..and the air in my face and just random shit like that. I remember waiting for shows to start and it being beyond hot and us trying to find shade and refuge inside any place we could. There was that lame ass river that ran underneath "my bridge" that i would always go visit by myself and that actually had the name "mel" spray painted on a lamp post (i swear i didn't do it) There was this one time i went to see this old friend's band and they were playing with Mae and something happened that i ran out crying hysterically to the bridge and i just remember sitting there ..the sky light with a dark orange glow and me in tears , it sounds sad and it was at the time..but that could probably be one of my favorite memories of arizona...maybe cuz im just melodramatic like that...
anways....
this entry was pretty stupid.
night kids

im a geek for stuff like this...

So even though i shouldn't be spending any money right now, we FINALLY
got the lomography ring flash in at work today and as soon as i saw it i almost fell to the floor!.
So i bought it and now i love it and i haven't even used it yet.





I'm so excited to get some money soon and buy some good film at b & h and just start shooting with my holga and more importantly my diana..
why is it that i love taking pictures soo much and never really develop my film..???
i'm lame...

Then i finally got back on my ebay kick and started looking up polaroid land cameras.
I have a crappy one back home and i never used it because it seemed impossible to find
film but now living so close to the best camera store ever made me want to get one. I
put a bid on one on ebay and WON!!!
so now i'm expecting this lovely thing in the mail..



Luckily there are a gazillion websites dedicated to teach you how to use transfer film and as soon as i get the hang of it ..i'll probably go transfer film crazy !
It's just amazing all the cool effects you can get mainly the double exposure of a polaroid...
yes kids this is the only thrill i get in life.

Friday, March 21, 2008

too much time on my hands....

I don't think i've done anything in the past week that is worth mentioning besides going to visit Luis or hanging out with Luis in the city. The rain has kept happy thoughts away and definitely has kept "adventurous mel" at bay. I need to start walking around the city more. I have taken a week off from looking at apartments for my sanity's sake really. I've been watching wayyy too much tv and how can i not when "how i met your mother" is
back on the air!!!and yes i know that Ms. Britney Spears will be on next weeks episode and im glad that at
least with this cameo HIMYM will get better ratings and more people will tune into the show so it can get picked up next season (yep im a geek) other than that im eating some really good chocolate cake from atlas right nowit's 2 days old but still taste goodddd.....
gosh im lame...







Friday, March 14, 2008

it's raining





rain is expected all next week...
i mean ALL next week ...WTF?
i guess this is what it's like to have seasons, but really now
if i wanted this much rain i would of moved to seattle .

I'm currently staying with my friend Jean till i go through the hell
of looking for an apartment . She lives dab in the middle of time
square which has its perks (It's 5 minutes away from my work)
and it's disadvantages (normally around 2 or 3 am drunk people
walk the streets yelling absurd things to each other normally happening
when i have to wake up around 6am) But the best thing is that
she lives right above a restaurant whose RED sign seems to sit right
next to her window making her room glow red whenever you turn off
the lights( her window is covered with a black curtain making it virtually
impossible to seep through with the lights on ) anyways im soo
obsessed with this mostly because it reminds me of that Seinfield episode.
(and i barely even like seinfield) but mostly because i just find it funny/amusing.
Really it feels like red light special all night long..
And really i get all kind of noise waking me up in the middle of the night,
it seems new york city never sleeps or more like whoever the fuck is out in times square
at all hours of the night. I hear construction always going on but i never really can
see where its happening. I hear drunk people walking the streets but i really don't know
of any bars on this block. I hear horses outside yet i never see them walking down my
street....All this boggles me..i just imagine a guy with a boombox playing this melody of
noises just to make me toss and turn all night, regardless i kind of love it.

Tuesday, March 11, 2008

dear craigslist,

why do you allow such ridiculous people to post apartment posting on there..
im over it..
thannks for nothing,
melissa
.................

finding an apartment in new york has become my second job.
lame

Saturday, March 8, 2008

i've made it to nyc

...and of course it's raining!
I somehow got sick on one of my gazillion lay overs and now im paying the price.
It is so cold outside anytime i step out my lungs feel like they are collapsing, i hope
this is not a foreshadowing of the coming months.
There are a list of things i must get to...
a lot of buying stuff i forgot to pack,
a lot of remembering the stuff i forgot to pack and seeing if they can ship it over
so i won't have to buy it, then there's that big thing you know the whole finding a place to live thing. yeah if anyone knows of any places that need a roomate let me know ASAP!!!

Today i ventured out with Lex to see a movie , we saw Miss Pettigrew lives for a day ..
it was a very entertaining movie , i dare say i REALLY REALLY liked it...
Amy Adams was amazing in it, and this time i knew it was her and not Isla Fischer who i am
constantly confusing her for, i went a few years thinking they were the same person which
up until this movie i had my doubts but she was so charming and electric in the movie ...
but just to plead my case

Amy Adams...


and

Isla Fischer


Do you see it...
I was thinking of marketing a SCENE IT based on movies and the question
Isla Fischer or Amy Adams....???
maybe i should wait till they make more movies though?
.....
there will be a lot more random blogging once i can come to my senses, realize that im in new york city and get over this stupid sickness thing