still home...still awesome..

Im so lucky that i have got to see a lot of people in my short stay here.
Things have been going at a good pace so i definitely don't feel like my stay
here just passed me by..
Friday i hung out with uhnet, luis and danny . We went to south coast plaza and shopped a little , even though i don't think any of us actually shopped. I shopped for some bday presents and lost myself in the paper source store that is fucking awesome...then we ate and had many good laughs.. Luis almost destroyed our table and after all eyes were on us we decided that maybe we were being a bit too loud. We left and headed to their apartment which is beyond SWEET!! when i become a grownup i want to have an apartment like them.


My little sister is obsessed with my nikon she keeps trying to get me to take pictures of her..
she will just start posing and ask me to take my camera out..i hope this is just a phase


Red Room was also on friday night... It was sooooo nice to be able to see everyone! I really missed them ... Steve and Jasmine made my night and "the steve smell" was present and if you don't know what that means , it basically means the best smell ever!!!! I barely drank but it was just good to be able to do the usual red room and hole mole...with the people i care about.















Saturday night was Shadi's birthday celebration, we had a get together at claim jumper. We had a lot of good food and lots of laughs which is always nice. We finished the night watching sex and the city drinking some concoction that michelle thought up and eventually falling asleep. haha were grandma's ..
three more days..

back in california...

The weather followed me back..it seems to be rainy here yet i only have heard myths about this. When i arrived i was greeted with a warm sun on my back and palm trees lining the streets..I really missed this place.It's been great to see everyone and just wonderful to just sit at home and do nothing. I love it here and this is truly home...here are some pics...

the new member of our family is toby..he is the cutest dog/small fox ever.
my family rescued him from the streets and now he is basically a part of the family
im going to miss him when i go back to the city..

i want candy

i am a hot mess...not going to lie...
makeup all over the place , dirty hair, running on no sleep



today rusha, lexy and me when to dylan's candy bar to look around
we all got nostalgic about the candy we used to eat..
we bought some stuff..
lexy got an abba zabba
rusha got fruit stripe gum
and i got a gummy burger
I LOVE LOVE LOVE gummy food..
they have a whole gummy deli there that im going to buy
as soon as i get payed and just sit on my lunch break pretending to
eat my own mini buffet ...but it will all be made out of gummies..
i just realized that i sounded like i was 5 years old..

after that we decided that we needed some grey's papaya
which is probably the cheapest thing (besides a slice of pizza) that you can get in
the city. two hot dogs and soda for 3.50!!! i mean it's pretty much an extra value meal
if new york knew what that was ...7 dollars for mcdonalds is most definitely not a value meal at all...

after that we decided to release the balloon we had held captive..
sometimes i wish that life was like that french movie "the red balloon"
or maybe we can all go around carrying colored balloons for a day ?
that would be such a pretty sight..why am i rambling again?
oh yeah its 3 in the morning








i love my nikon d40

it's here!

the holga 35mm




I'm so excited to get this, i mean a more pratical holga is definitely what i need since
money is tight and developing 120 film is really expensive and hard to find. Now i get
that this sort of takes away some of the magic that makes the holga well a holga, but
really i know that it will just be way easier to have this around and i can never turn away
from medium format photography. Along with this one they are also selling a new 35mm
holga pinhole camera which im not really into since my diana camera is basically exactly the same.
anyways you can find this camera and other amazing cameras at www.lomography.com

ok i lie i need some sleep...

I admit it i watch too much reality tv, i spend too much time online, and i walk entirely too much without the appropriate footwear. I like to waste time and i rarely get any sleep , and yesterday was definitely no different. I'm still playing with my camera i realized that back in the day it was all about "myspace" pictures and i would constantly photograph myself. I hate to be photographed..HATE HATE HATE it..maybe that's why i picked up a camera so i wouldn't have to be the one on the other side. But yesterday i was heading to Lexy's and got all dolled up and decided that i should probably try to see if i could get some cute pictures of moi...this is what i came up with...





it almost looks like im trying to audition for america's next top model..hahaha
i get it it's lame...

After i braved the cold and headed over to Lex's and on the L train this woman was sketching me. I found it kind of flattering and when i saw she was done i wanted to go over and ask her to see it but opted not to for "art sake" (i dont know what that means btw) Once at Lexy's we were suppose to watch a movie and just chill but rusha called and we gladly changed our plans. There was a walk to bedford, a random bar, and some dirty mexican food in the mix and i finally made it to bed around 430 am when i had work at 8 am the next day , got up at 650 which SUCKED tremendously may i add and tried my best to walk without limping. There is something that i dont understand about us women, it's always wear cute shoes and pay
afterwards..but really i am in the kind of pain where i can't even get up and it's kind of ridiculous. Anyways...last nights bar excursion was way fun, we drank wine before we headed out due to our lack of funds. I don't know what it was but at the bar there was such a great vibe . Me and Rusha wore sunglasses while the whole table sang along to journey "dont stop believing" it was mad crazy and i loved it.
anyways i should be sleeping.. (you see what i mean) here are some pictures...

Dear Christopher Callahan,

I'm sorry i didn't send you the book, but you know how it is ..life in the big city just don't have any time with all the random coke binges, hipster bar hopping , and random sex capades it's just hard to keep up with "real life". The book had nothing to do with moving on BTW, or whatever you thought it had to do with . It was called "the paradox of choice" and since you always tune out when i speak to you for longer than five minutes i definitely don't expect you to remember the synopsis i gave you about the book , and nor am i going to repeat myself just google that shit. I'm not going to lie, I doubt that you can write a book on any subject especially about moving on since what the hell would you be moving on from? you are not the next doctor phil and i think for that we both should be thankful. You might be wondering why the hell am i dedicating an entry to you ( and you are probably also thinking your hot shit because of it , which your not nobody reads this anyways) well since you deleted your myspace (scene-space) and are never online i didn't really want to go completely out of my way and call you to let you know the book will come eventually and there is no need to wait by the mailbox. I mean this snail mail was suppose to go both ways...where is that zine you promised me? uh huh , thought so! anyways im going down to la next week for 6 days , drive down and make an appearance we will hit up some bars or do something equally as pathetic.
hope your doing well,

mel

late nights are not always restless..

I've been losing sleep lately , not really losing it I'm quite aware of where its going to
but sometimes its nice to misplace things to find later at a better time.
It's currently raining and probably the ugliest day I've seen since i arrived.
The death cab for cutie song "no sunshine" is running through my head and i really
am relieved i can spend my day off inside under the covers.
There are no stories to be told, besides tales of long walks and conversation.
There is no more exploring the city with every step it seems to call out "deja -vu".
Subways are becoming too familiar to me , the air that it pushes out towards you
when its running down the track is the coldest air i have ever felt.. this can also be
loneliness.

I spent Tuesday night walking around the lower east side with Lexy. A failed attempt to
go to a bar that i shouldn't of been at i took it as a sign and just decided to change plans into walking and talking in lonely parks. I don't believe any city has parks like new york city has parks. Last night was just as divine, i went out with Rusha and I didn't get home till 745 am. The plan was to go to a few bars and get some drinks which really was just a starter. We walked around and found a 24 hour dunking donuts. After we overstayed our welcome we realized it was 4 am and too late to go to another bar, so we did the most reasonable thing and went to another 24 hour eating spot. We came up with a brilliant plan to go to work even though we weren't even scheduled and silliness ensued from there.

I haven't made a new friend in awhile, it's so much fun to recount stories of your childhood and your life that let this other person get to know you a little better. It's almost like giving these people postcards or snapshots and explaining them in detail. It's hard to find anyone in this world to connect to and i guess I'm just lucky that I've always gravitated to "my people" .
I'm going home next week and nothing can be more exciting to me!
here are some pictures of the last few days....