philadelphia

this was suppose to be where i got some cute thrift store clothes..
and after 7 hours all i ended up with is a 12 dollar dress...
i miss california and it's affordable thrift stores..
was a complete tourist and basically took in all the history..
including betsy ross' house and the liberty bell (that i did not lick btw)
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home is where the heart is !
so true.

drinking is something i forgot how to do.
slowly straying away from routine...
my camera is keeping me company ..

trying at life.

sometimes we play dress up at work...

why is it that im invisible to most people?
im pretty loud, im outgoing, im silly and quirky and yet
i am constantly being overlooked, mainly by the male population.
i have now come to the conclusion that i am the girl you ask to dance
after everyone has already been partnered up , i am continuously second choice..
which is fucking lame...

how does one go about being first choice?
this is really mind boggling for me actually i just want someone to help me through the steps on how to be a well adjusted likeable human being that doesn't repell all males.

walking

..is making my feet ugly.

Not that they were pretty to begin with , but definitely with the amount of walking I've been doing they are getting considerably worse. This morning i couldn't even get up , my knees were squeaking like a rusty bike which now brings me to the point that I must be a grandma. Lexy and I decided to walk over the williamsburg bridge from her apartment to st. marks and even though that is a daily thing with her i am was suprisingly (sarcasm) not used to it. With all that walking and all the walking I do at work i think my feet need a rest.

I'm up and it's 4am here.. I'm never up this late but tomorrow i close and my roommate is not here tonight and when that happens i normally try to stay up till the sun comes up. I get really scared when im alone and i realize that im alone. I know it sounds stupid but it's almost like when you get your hand smashed by a door and you don't realize the pain till you look at it. Ok it's nothing like that but you get the gist. This way if I'm up i could just pretend that it's 4pm and I'm just going about my business, and not caught off guard incase something happens. I spend a good portion of the night watching almost famous on jeans computer. It was the extended version which is amazing because it ties in all the loose ends and i mean i ADORE this movie it reminds me a lot of When i was younger , eager and hopeful and just in love with music.I wanted to travel the country listening to my favorite band and experiencing the music i love with my friends .. and i guess i got to live that out in way. And no i was never a groupie (thank god) i always felt so connected to Penny Lane i don't know why maybe i wanted to be a groupie? hahaha NOOO but there is something about that character that just made me feel like i either wanted to be here or i was her. Damn you Cameron Crowe with Almost Famous and Elizabethtown you have my heart.

now unto pictures...

sunny days are here again

It's been good lately, I don't know what it is but my attitude has made a 360. I went to being depressed and stressed all the time to being happy and more care-free. Maybe it is because when your down there is nowhere to go but up? I hope so because i am really starting to enjoy the weather and just the city vibe right now. It might have something to do with the sunny skies or it might have something to do with the fact that i just bought a nikon d40!!! I've wanted one for soo many years and now i finally own one, and im playing with it like crazy.

A camera is almost like a friend in a way that you really have to get yourself adjusted to it, this could take forever sometimes, my first digital camera i knew like the back of my hand. Depending on the picture i was taking and such i knew without thinking what were the right settings,and lighting, etc... which is amazing because i am not a good technical photographer so those things are kind of eh to me and don't come to me as fast..so now with this new camera ..it's all about exploring ! giving me more control over my picture (which could be a bad thing) but still having the luxury of digital.

Lex, Rusha, and I  went to central park today since it was 74 degrees in new york city. It was such an nice trip walking through central park and just enjoying each others company. We walked all the way to the Met and just people watched for awhile while sharing the most expensive meal off a cart ever!!! 14 dollars for two hot dogs and two sodas...wtf??? I didn't even care though because i was finally having a really good day...I took some pictures of my excursion and please pardon the rookie-ness. I'm just getting to know my camera and this might be a long relationship ...

i was in pennsylvania this weekend...

...and it was pretty awesome..first off it was just nice to be back in car after so long. I love long car rides..which is ironic because i don't drive but still any time i can classify anything as a road trip I'm in. It didn't take that long to get there and as soon as we arrived at Dickinson College..i really started to regret not going to college. The buildings on the campus were so adorable, i just wanted to live in them. There was even a bonfire going on, that i was sad i couldn't attend. The library was pretty sweet also, it even had a card catalog..i haven't seen one of those in forever!! I sound like im from outerspace right now getting excited about a card catalog but really it seems with technology today these kind of things are becoming non existent so it is just sort of a nostalgia thing....

anyways here are some pictures enjoy...






more at my flickr.....http://www.flickr.com/photos/melephant/show/