I want short hair back...

Could you believe this was me???
I am slowly starting to feel like the person I used to be. When I was younger I thought I could do anything and no one could stop me. Maybe being idealistic like this was the key to my happiness. Ignorance is bliss like they all say. I used to wear my hair this short because it made me feel powerful. It started as an accident really, I bleached my hair about 3 times and when that was done my hair felt like hay. All I could do was cut off all my hair and hope to God that it would grow out fast. I remember being in the salon chair scared for my life with tears rolling down my face after each snip. Pathetic? I know, but for a girl hiding behind your hair is almost like your strength. It isn't just a greek myth it's how we feel. As soon as the hair went though I actually felt different. I had nothing to hide behind it was almost like I was really showing myself to the world. Years after the first cut I would revisit this haircut every time I wanted to "shed my skin". A boy would hurt me, the hair left. New job, new challenge in my life the hair left. You get the picture. I have since let my hair grow, it is now way passed my shoulders. I still get the urge to cut my hair every once and awhile but I have to tell myself that things are different now. Who knows maybe one day I'll be that person again.

It's been a while hasn't it.

Since the last time I posted I have done A LOT!!! I've also had about a gazillion meltdowns to cover. It's amazing that this year is almost over and to think of it I think it's the year I learned the most. I lost one of my favorite people in the world to cancer and lived through it. I still can't believe she is gone. I went from constantly complaining about my position in life to owning everything and now almost being okay with it. I am inspired by the person I used to be and re-connecting with that person is what has changed my outlook. I'm planning so much for this new year and am just excited to get the ball rolling.

Enough about that now on to other things. The past few weeks I have found myself in more social situations that I could shake a stick at. I love my friends but if you know me I am not exactly the social butterfly. A couple of weeks ago my co-workers coerced me into staying in LA for the night so they could show me around, what ended up happening was that 2 pitchers of pbr, a dozen or so beers, one jack and coke later I couldn't remember where I was...eeekkk.


this is Kyle he normally is a nice guy from Conneticut but that night he was pretty much an evil killer.


Marshall being a creepster..

Daniel and his friend decided to get a way past midnight snack. About five minutes later Daniel ran upstairs to show us his room where he then decided to pass out.

Marshall being himself, no seriously!

This is Marshall's pet snake. Snakes are a lot cuter than we give them credit for.

I'm really looking into neighborhoods in LA to move to. I don't like LA but in all honesty I can't hold out any longer in moving out and it's either LA or Orange County and since I work in LA I think one is a no brainer. Neighborhoods like Echo Park and Los Feliz are really calling out to me right now. To be honest I just want a place to hang pictures on the wall and bake cookies the rest really doesn't matter.